I really need some more lines around my eyes.
Seriously.
I'm 36 years old and like Rod Stewart's Maggie Mae, the morning sun really shows my age. In fact I try to avoid looking in the bathroom mirror during a certain hour of the morning when the sunlight shines golden on that side of the house. Not that I'm vain or anything.
But for the past few months I have found myself pursing my lips and clenching my teeth throughout the day and evening. Sitting at my desk. Cooking dinner. In the shower. On the phone.
I need to lighten up. Taking life so seriously won't cure Oliver of autism.
Clenching my teeth won't put lines around my eyes.
Smiles that go all the way to my eyes -- the kind that Oliver and Nik and Sam have in abundance -- are what I wish for myself in the new year.
New Years Resolution #2: Get more lines around my eyes!
On my birthday (which was Dec 10th) I made some comment too about my face has changed--thinned out, with lines.
ReplyDeleteIt's been 6 years since "autism" became a common word in our household. About 3 years ago I noted that when I got angry--because Charlie was not getting some program, the school district was full of no's, some doctor's office showed us the door really fast--I felt the face and teeth clench. And Charlie always picked up on it and he got more agigated and...downword spiral.
It's only this year--after five years at it--that I smile, even laugh, in teh face of messes like the one he made in my bedroom (papers, paint chips, rice...). Why feel worse than I might have to?