My Bubbles

Not too long ago I posted that I had decided to quit my job and change my career. It had become so obvious to me that, although I used to find great challenge and satisfaction in my job, things had changed and I needed to find a new direction. It became too difficult for me to split my devotions everyday between my job at home and my job at the office. Going to work became too much like an exercise in collecting a paycheck and I wasn't feeling very good about myself. SO, on the spur of the moment and with a healthy dose of optimism, I quit my job and decided to apply to the RDI certification program.

Yesterday I was accepted.

Today I have been breathing deeply with a mixture of anxiety and excitement. I'm on the verge of making an immense change and there is no way to know how things will go unless I jump in with both feet. But jumping has never come all that easily to me. Oh, and did I mention that I will need to be away from home for nearly two weeks in December? Two weeks? Nevermind all of the intellectual, emotional and financial challenges that are sure to lie ahead, my mind is having trouble wrapping itself around that one little point and a single distressing thought keeps floating to the surface: "What will they eat?!"

But in the midst of that bit of angst, I can't help but feel a second bubble of excitement that is floating just beneath the surface. I'm doing this. I'm following my gut. I'm not taking the safe, static, route. I've even allowed myself to do a little bit of dreaming on an even larger scale. And here it is, I'll share it with you; my dream for the future: I want to start a local non-profit organization with the hope that I can raise most, or all, of the funds needed to cover RDI services for families who need it most. In my experience, RDI is a lot cheaper than ABA, but it is also a lot less likely to be covered by any kind of insurance or included in any public school supported services, thus putting it out of reach for so many families. I'm pretty good at grant writing and I think I can be pretty persuasive about RDI. So, I'm going to start off in that direction and see where I'm led. I mean, if I'm going to change my whole life then I might as well go for the whole enchilada, don't you think? Or am I just totally crazy?