i wish so many things weren't hard for me. everything that comes easily to other people is not simple for me. i sometimes wonder if i will ever find my way. there are so many things that i would like to do that are impossible for me because i cant make my body work. i would like to be able to play the piano but it is too hard to make all my fingers work together. i make all the compositions in my head and listen to them when i try to sleep. the music is like really tiny moments of water and light playing together making an all day rain. i think someday i will be able to write it down but i have to learn how to write music first. i have much to learn.
i feel hopeful about the future. i will go to school soon where i will learn with other kids. i have learned about other people like me who type to talk and they help me think my future will not be as lonely as my past.