i have been working very hard on tests. the tests have mostly been easy and i think everyone is surprised by how smart i am. it feels wonderful to finally really have people treat me like i am a thinking boy. i think really good people sometimes want to help me instead of speaking to me as though i am capable. when they talk to me slowly, loudly and with simple words they think they are making it easier to understand them. they don't understand that my disability is a kind of ability, too. when i can't do things because my body won't cooperate this is my disability. but i also think my autism helps me learn things in a way that others really don't understand. i remember everything i see and hear. i think the good parts of my autism would be something every person would like to have if they could.