Friday, January 27, 2006

So? Call me an Ostrich!

Of all the decisions I've had to make since Autism the hardest, by far, doesn't even have to do with Oliver. And it is a decision I have to revisit every three months. The decision to vaccinate my Sammy is so hard that I usually choose to just ignore it altogether, keeping him warm and safe in the cocoon of our little green house and trying not to think of all the germs that are just outside those walls plotting how to get at his tiny little immune system. So, call me an ostrich if you must but this is one decision that, for the moment, is being made by default.

Today I am taking him- one month late because I couldn't face it a month ago - to the peds office for his "well baby" visit. My last visit there left me feeling slightly bruised and I almost decided to quit going altogether. Really, the "visits" are just an exercise of me forking over $35 for the jab of the needle. Without the needle do I really need to spend $35 for them to tell me that he is growing and gaining as he should be? But I don't want to go to the place where bad mothers go when they die so I will take him and pay the $35 and consider myself lucky that I get some benefit out of our insurance.

Wish me luck.


  1. I am with you on the vaccination issue. I don't even want to vaccinate Brian again who is up to date to this point. I was able to get a titers test for his last visit to see if he was immune to the MMR. He was and we were able to avoid any shots for the time being, but he is due to get 3 shots this May before entering Kindergarten. Ugh! I hate the whole idea of it. I refuse to ever get another shot for Andrew! He will be due for the 2nd MMR this June and I will again have the titers done. Hopefully he will also be immune and I will be able to buy some more time for him. I guess my next step after that will be to write a "religious exemption" letter. I have saved an example of a letter I got off of an online yahoo support group. I can always email it to you if you ever think you might want to use it. I have no idea if that route will work with my school district, but I will do anything I have to do to avoid getting Andrew immunized again. I know that there is an alternate schedule that you can use with your little one. I guess it is better to spread the shots out instead of giving them so many at once. I tell everyone who has a new baby to at least try to use an alternate schedule. I think there is a copy in the archives of the support group that I can look for.

    Good luck! I know that dealing with this whole thing sucks on top of everything else we have to deal with. Lets us know how it works out for you.

  2. My wife and I have decided that our next child will not be vaccinated until after the age of 3. We are willing to live with the chance that our next child is unlikely to encounter such rare infections that vaccinations are suppose to protect against. Most doctors have never seen the infections and diseases for which they are vaccinating children for.

  3. Unlike many ASD kids, Henry seemed to exhibit his behaviors from the beginning, rather than easily correlated with a vaccine. Still, I was uneasy when it came time for Thomas' shots. I felt like I at least could ask more educated questions, but I did ultimately go ahead and have him vaccinated.

    Whooping cough went around our high school this year. My teenage daughter came down with it (the vaccine wears off) and we all had to take an antibiotic. At that moment, I felt relieved that Tommy had been vaccinated. I tell this story only to give one example of a case where the vaccine seemed like a good thing. Most of the time they do seem dangerous, and a waste of money, and unpleasant experience for our little ones.

    It's probably over by now, so I hope today went ok. The pediatrician can really be a disappointment. Before everything happened with Henry, I took my ped's word as gospel.

  4. Wow. That's so funny that you wrote about vaccinations, because I have been thinking alot about it lately. I'm not sure what to do. My daughter will be going into kindergarten this fall and is due shots, Gabe's last shots were before he was diagnosed. I just want to cry at the thought of injecting my children with the same shots that come from companies that lie in the wake of an epidemic that may have been responsible for creating. Could my daughter react at 4 years old? I am shooting for an excemption. Gabe is in no way getting any more shots. I do not feel the medical community has given me reason to believe that they care about the welfare of my children.
    Sorry about the rant and rave :o)


  5. Hi Christine,

    Kyra from This Mom wanted me to pass along to you that she wanted to leave a comment but she can't because she doesn't have a blogger account. You can change your settings so that anyone can post a comment, but still keep the word verification to keep out spam. Just passing this along.

    I went to bed last night thinking about this whole immunization thing. Just to let the group know...When Andrew was 3 1/2 months old hew broke out in strange hives two days after getting 4 shots at his well care visit. I wish I took a picture. When I called the doctor to describe the hives, he dismissed it as ring worm and never advised me to bring him in to the office. I went along with his immunizations clueless as I was. He is up to date to this point. Later when I described the hives to his Immunologist, she said that it sounded like a definite reaction to the shots. So, this is our experience.

  6. Thanks Eileen. I changed it. It must've gotten screwed up when I changed my template.

    The Ped. appt. actually went really well. I'll post about it tomorrow when I'm not so brain dead!