In a comment on my last post, Niksmom reminded me that I never need to "spin" things for the readers of this blog. And she is so right. If ever there was a group of people with whom I knew I could just lay it all out there, without fear of judgement, it is with the regular readers of this blog.
I spin for myself. I believe my own PR. I have to. And maybe that is why I blog, too. I need to frame things, in writing, in a way that lets me keep on moving forward with optimism and hope. So yeah, there are lots of sucky days (well, lately) but I want to be the glass half-full kind of mother. I have to be that kind of mother because Oliver deserves it.
So I'm already spinning. I don't know what is going on with Oliver. That is the hard part. But my intuition tells me that it has something to do with Sami starting pre-school, his growing awareness and interest in other children, and his increasing desire to communicate. He is struggling with all these things so it makes sense that he wants to retreat to more mindless activities because the dynamic world is becoming bigger and more complicated. He is tackling bigger and bigger challenges. What remains to be seen is how he will work it out. How WE will work it out.
Anyway, there is one big thing that has most definitely changed for Oliver. The evidence is in the video below taken today. The second video is from our vacation over the summer and it just makes me smile. And maybe that is what I need to end the day with.